The mysterious disappearing post
October 16, 2006
The air is changing. I can feel it every time I step outside. It’s not the coolness around me, it’s not the wet pavement. It’s something else. Is it just because it’s fall? Perhaps. This time of year is always very strange for me, as much as I love it. I have fond memories from college of walking between classes in the crisp air, going apple-picking with my floormates and eating apples for weeks afterwards, and in more recent years, sitting and staring out the window at the rain coming down. Spring and summer are always about what I could be doing, fall and winter it’s much less of a question since I don’t have access to an outdoors that I want to spend much time in. Instead of sitting and soaking up the sun I huddle underneath my massive umbrella waiting for a bus, actually looking forward to getting into a dry, air-conditioned environment. I suppose that’s better than digging out my car from snow or carefully walking to the bus stop on an icepack, so I’ll be thankful for the little things.
I’m happy that I went for my 12.5 mile run Saturday afternoon rather than waiting for Sunday. I sat in my apartment listening to the rain come down for most of the day, and there was no way I would have been willing to run in that mess. At least, not a half-marathon. I used to run in the rain when I was regularly doing 5k 10 months ago, but I have a feeling it would be much more uncomfortable for an hour and a half rather than the 30 minutes or so it used to take me. I remember getting back to my apartment, soaked to the bone, and I just felt miserable. On the bright side, it meant that I didn’t have to take as long of a shower afterwards. Tomorrow I think I may skip my run for the first time in months. I was watching the sky tonight, and it was dark by 6:30–40 minutes before I usually get home. I’d be cold, probably wet, and walking home in the dark. Time to take a break, I think. I just hope it doesn’t extend until January like it did last year. It took me two and a half months to lose the weight I gained between Thanksgiving and New Year’s last year, and I’d like to not repeat that.
If anyone saw my last entry, you’ll notice it’s not there anymore. I took it down at someone’s request, though oddly enough, not by the request of the person who I intended to fluster. My cunning plan to piss someone off worked, but I wasn’t the target in the end. The person who requested I take it down felt that leaving it up would be incendiary and create a bad situation for them, and I agreed. But, I still stand by my ending comment. Normally I’m not one to self-censor (so to speak), but I weighed the pros and cons of leaving it up, and I decided in the end that not creating a hostile situation for my friend would be the best resolution. If the person who I intended to goad is going to take out their anger and paranoia on her instead, well, there’s nothing I can do about that except shake my head in disbelief and try not to create a situation where my friend is on the receiving end of that. And that’s all I’m going to say on that topic.
I bought a dartboard in a nice pine cabinet. I’m going to hang it in my living room and pretend that I’m in some English pub, throwing darts and wagering for a pint. Actually, I’ll probably play once or twice and then it will sit on my wall until I have a friend over and they’ll notice it and think it’ll be fun to play for a bit, then we’ll both discover neither of us can throw and it’ll get closed up again until that event repeats itself. But, I’ll have something else hanging on my wall. It’s a tradeoff, I suppose.
I’m spent for ideas of things I’d like to air publicly.
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